my life

So here is what is going on in my life. i am looking for a job. but i really do not want to work. i am scared to work. i have been diagnosed with depression, anxity, bipolar 2 ocd and pstd0 (Posttraumatic stress disorder) and being around alot of people is very uncomfertable for me. i wish i was not so anixious around people. i am going to threaphy now. and it does seem to be helping some. but i still do not feel comfertable around alot of people. i have trouble sometimes when the family gets together sometimes because i have such a big family. i love my family but sometimes when we are to gether i get anxious and have panic attackes. i am scared if i get a job and it gets busy i will have one. i had a job last year and we had a busy day and i had one. they are no fun. i am on some meds but lately they do not seem to be helping. i am having the panic attacks again. and getting mad all the time for no reason. i just wish i could make it go away and i would not have to deal with it anymore.